Me: ...I don't know
Blogs are a teensy bit difficult to keep up with when you're studying. For people who are interested for new posts, here it is. :D Not that feel as though I could be bothered studying anyway. I am hating this semester with a passion and just want to get into uni asap. I thought Human Movement might contribute well in nursing, but it's more used for people who want to become personal trainers. I find this out just THIS year. derp.
I've always enjoyed Psychology but I enjoyed it with last years teacher. This years teacher puts me to sleep because all she talks about is her personal life in relation to what we're learning about. The mature age students with children like to contribute as well and one particular guy has a life experience story for every topic brought up in class. One girl who likes telling stories tells them in such a way that sort of makes me want to punch her in the face and this other guy likes to throw his opinion out in the open or answer other people's questions when they're not directed at him. Alex calls him 'Manorexic." because he totally is.
I've lost interest in Psych really. Last year I learnt more in class than in the text book because the damn book is so boring. When i lose interest in something, my marks plummet down. I almost got straight A's in last years class, this semester's first exam was pretty damn bad. >__> Luckily I have a chance at a resit.
There's 7 days in a week but it takes just one of those days to hold an event that has the potential to change a life forever. I think it's incredible how one person can change something, whether it be for better or for worse. Or even both! Something can only happen for a split second or something somebody says can change your outlook on that person, make you come to a realisation or bring on an array of emotion. Just these past couple of days all of that has happened to me and the feeling is just so overwhelming. For three years he has been in the back of my mind. The confusion and sadness paralysed me into thinking I was worthless and even contributed to the break up of a new relationship. I was so in love it made me sick as soon as it was broken and I had no strength of my own. Only a few of my true friends were my "scaffolding" . Without them, I would have crumbled. It has been a long time since I felt so low like that but he was still lingering at the back of my mind. Especially since I was looking after his cat. Scarily enough, I saw a lot of him in Chester. It didn't effect how I treated Chester, not at all. It was sad though. Who knew all he had to say to me to break these years of subconscious attachment was "That's pathetic, that's not in the slightest bit amusing. Stop being a fucking child"
(That was towards, like, the best joke ever that I sent him)
Just re-writing that brought up this feeling of molten lava from my heart all the way up to my cheeks. RAGE. What feelings were left for him instantly disappeared and in its place a burning hatred. Yeah, I went off my face. Got a bit emotional. Called him a few interesting names. Not the man I fell in love with, not even a man at all at the moment. It's the first time I've gone off at him since we broke up. I don't know what I did to him that caused this hatred towards me but you can have it right back.
Come.At.Me.Bro.Ski.
I still feel anger towards what else he wrote to me but only time will heal that.
I'm not really interested in going back in the dating game. Just going to play it cool. Although I have my experiences, I'm no expert in relationships but even when you love a person so much and you trust them with everything, NEVER give anybody money you know will be difficult for them to return. It's really not worth the hassle and you'll have some loser implying you're dishonest and that you lived off them the entire time you were in a relationship with them. I'm not really one interested in getting revenge. I am a huge believer in karma though. He's most likely going to get on the wrong side of someone who's capable of doing a lot worse than I could....which is just calling you a variety of abusive colourful names. I am trained in karate though ;D
I'm not really interested in going back in the dating game. Just going to play it cool. Although I have my experiences, I'm no expert in relationships but even when you love a person so much and you trust them with everything, NEVER give anybody money you know will be difficult for them to return. It's really not worth the hassle and you'll have some loser implying you're dishonest and that you lived off them the entire time you were in a relationship with them. I'm not really one interested in getting revenge. I am a huge believer in karma though. He's most likely going to get on the wrong side of someone who's capable of doing a lot worse than I could....which is just calling you a variety of abusive colourful names. I am trained in karate though ;D
I need a massive holiday. I should be going camping sometime soon with Jake. I found the coolest place just an hour and a half out of Brisbane. A nice camp-site near a dam to swim in, a spot to build a camp fire, track and trails, just a place to kick back and relax. DISREGARD THE AUTHORITIES
Thanks for reading, guize.
Thanks for reading, guize.
